God gives you what you need,not what you demand to have

hey there,
its been a while since my last post

this day, i am being so suspicious about everything, even for the very simple thing.
or maybe i am just being so greedy or ..hmmm.. i dont know

"God gives you what you need, not what u demand to have"..
are you familiar with that lines... so am i. and agree with that?
i am just being so curious about this lines anw
and i ve been thinking over and over again..why is that sooo

weell, if you think what u get is what i indeed need. why do i feel so blue when it comes to me?
and up untill tonight i am still busy wondering, thinking and .....